Fighting


๐’ซ๐‘’๐‘œ๐“…๐“๐‘’ ๐’ถ๐“‡๐‘’ ๐’ป๐’พ๐‘”๐’ฝ๐“‰๐’พ๐“ƒ๐‘”โ€ฆone way or another, with, between them or against something else. Itโ€™s an endless struggle we call life. Sometimes we are optimistic, looking forward to the near future, looking at what we can do  and on the other hand, we are seeing the pessimistic side, we focus on what we canโ€™t do, on how bad things turn up to be. With these said, itโ€™s hard to find a balance, that same balance which we are anger to achieve. Iโ€™m also stuck in finding this balance, in finding the good in the bad, in finding the solution that simply lies ahead.

Sometimes I wish things were easier, people were kinder, but that is not a thing which we can control.  Everyone is choosing ๐“‰๐’ฝ๐‘’๐’พ๐“‡ ๐‘œ๐“Œ๐“ƒ ๐“…๐’ถ๐“‰๐’ฝ, creating their own laws and principles so if those match yours itโ€™s luck I suppose, but if donโ€™t, you need to accept them with no further questions after all each one of us has the right to live as he pleases. 

So why itโ€™s so hard to let the people around us take a different path?

๐’ช๐“‡ ๐“‰๐‘œ ๐“๐‘’๐“‰ ๐“‰๐’ฝ๐‘’๐“‚ ๐’ฝ๐’ถ๐“‹๐‘’ ๐“‰๐’ฝ๐‘’๐’พ๐“‡ ๐‘œ๐“Œ๐“ƒ ๐’ธ๐‘œ๐“ƒ๐’ธ๐‘’๐“…๐“‰๐“ˆ ๐‘’๐“‹๐‘’๐“ƒ ๐’พ๐’ป ๐“‰๐’ฝ๐‘’๐“Ž ๐’น๐’พ๐“ˆ๐’ถ๐‘”๐“‡๐‘’๐‘’ ๐“Œ๐’พ๐“‰๐’ฝ ๐“Š๐“ˆ, ๐“Œ๐’พ๐“‰๐’ฝ ๐‘œ๐“Š๐“‡ ๐“Œ๐’ถ๐“Ž ๐‘œ๐’ป ๐“๐’พ๐’ป๐‘’?

Maybe we are attracted to others, and we think we can take them with us, as we are selfish beings, maybe we need them in our lives to fill the empty place in our emotion that we failed to create. Why are we clinging to them even or especially when they donโ€™t want us?

๐ผ๐“‰ ๐’พ๐“ˆ ๐’ท๐‘’๐’ธ๐’ถ๐“Š๐“ˆ๐‘’ ๐“Œ๐‘’ ๐“‰๐’ฝ๐’พ๐“ƒ๐“€ ๐“Œ๐‘’ ๐’ธ๐’ถ๐“ƒ ๐’ถ๐’ธ๐’ฝ๐’พ๐‘’๐“‹๐‘’ ๐‘’๐“‹๐‘’๐“‡๐“Ž๐“‰๐’ฝ๐’พ๐“ƒ๐‘”, ๐’ธ๐“Š๐“โ€™ ๐“Œ๐‘’ ๐’ถ๐“‡๐‘’ ๐’ธ๐’ถ๐“…๐’ถ๐’ท๐“๐‘’ ๐‘œ๐“‡ ๐’พ๐“‰ ๐’พ๐“ˆ ๐’ท๐‘’๐’ธ๐’ถ๐“Š๐“ˆ๐‘’ ๐“Œ๐‘’ ๐’ถ๐“๐“Œ๐’ถ๐“Ž๐“ˆ ๐“‰๐’ฝ๐’พ๐“ƒ๐“€ ๐“Œ๐‘’ ๐’ธ๐’ถ๐“ƒ ๐’ธ๐’ฝ๐’ถ๐“ƒ๐‘”๐‘’ ๐“‰๐’ฝ๐‘’๐“‚ ๐‘œ๐“‡ ๐’ฝ๐‘’๐“๐“… ๐“‰๐’ฝ๐‘’๐“‚?

Until now, I tried not voluntarily or consciously to change and to help others. Iโ€™ve always said to myself : people donโ€™t change, unless they want to and that of course needs a tremendous power of will from them, but I donโ€™t know why I tried to stick with them even if I knew the chances were all against. Well I like competition, I like to win and I like to see the smiles upon otherโ€™s faces when Iโ€™m with them, I like to make them happy, but I donโ€™t know why I insisted so much to help them under the pretexts that maybe they donโ€™t know how to help themselves or they are too shy or they donโ€™t have the power or the support to do it. The answer was always in front of me: if they want, they will do it, but I guess I never wanted to believe the fact that they donโ€™t want to. Iโ€™ve always found reasons why they canโ€™t cuzโ€™ I was afraid to find why they donโ€™t want.

๐‘€๐’ถ๐“Ž๐’ท๐‘’ ๐ผโ€™๐“‚ ๐’ฟ๐“Š๐“ˆ๐“‰ ๐’ท๐‘’๐’พ๐“ƒ๐‘” ๐“ƒ๐’ถรฏ๐“‹๐‘’ ๐“‰๐’ฝ๐’พ๐“ƒ๐“€๐’พ๐“ƒ๐‘” ๐“‰๐’ฝ๐’ถ๐“‰ ๐’น๐‘’๐‘’๐“… ๐’น๐‘œ๐“Œ๐“ƒ ๐“‰๐’ฝ๐‘’๐“Ž ๐’ฝ๐’ถ๐“‹๐‘’ ๐“€๐’พ๐“ƒ๐’น๐“ƒ๐‘’๐“ˆ๐“ˆ ๐’ถ๐“ƒ๐’น ๐’พ๐“‰โ€™๐“ˆ ๐“ƒ๐‘œ๐“‰ ๐‘’๐“‹๐‘’๐“‡๐“Ž๐“‰๐’ฝ๐’พ๐“ƒ๐‘” ๐’ฟ๐“Š๐“ˆ๐“‰ ๐’ถ ๐“‡๐‘’๐’ธ๐“€๐“๐‘’๐“ˆ๐“ˆ ๐“ˆ๐’ฝ๐’พ๐“… ๐’ธ๐“‡๐“Š๐“ˆ๐’ฝ๐’พ๐“ƒ๐‘” ๐“‰๐‘œ ๐’ถ๐“ƒ ๐’ถ๐’พ๐“ˆ๐’ท๐‘’๐“‡๐‘”.


„BAD DAY”

๐’ž๐’ถ ๐“ˆ๐’ถ ๐’พ๐“ƒ๐“‰๐“‡๐’ถ๐“‚ ๐’พ๐“ƒ ๐“ˆ๐“‰๐’ถ๐“‡๐‘’ ๐’ถ๐“‚ ๐“ˆ๐’ถ ๐“‰๐‘’ ๐“‡๐‘œ๐‘” ๐“ˆ๐’ถ ๐’น๐’ถ๐’พ ๐“…๐“๐’ถ๐“Ž ๐“…๐‘’ ๐’ป๐“Š๐“ƒ๐’น๐’ถ๐“ ๐“๐’ถ ๐“‚๐‘’๐“๐‘œ๐’น๐’พ๐’ถ ๐’ถ๐“ˆ๐“‰๐’ถ : ๐ต๐’ถ๐’น ๐’น๐’ถ๐“Ž-๐’Ÿ๐’ถ๐“ƒ๐’พ๐‘’๐“ ๐’ซ๐‘œ๐“Œ๐“‰๐‘’๐“‡


Cred ca tuturor ni s-a intamplat sa avem o zi atat de rea, care sa ne faca sa devenim regizori de film in incercarea de a ii gasi sfarsitul. Stiti intrebarea retorica,  dar cliseica โ€ž ๐’ช๐’ถ๐“‡๐‘’ ๐’ธ๐’ถ๐“ƒ๐’น ๐“ˆ๐‘’ ๐“‰๐‘’๐“‡๐“‚๐’พ๐“ƒ๐’ถ ๐“๐’พ๐“Š๐’ถ ๐’ถ๐“ˆ๐“‰๐’ถ?โ€…sau poate pentru unii a fost saptamana, luna; who knows.

Chiar de curand, am avut o astfel de perioada si am incercat sa o inteleg โ€“ mare greseala. E normal sa avem o multitudine de stari, sa obosim chiar uneori sa le avem, sa incercam sa le intelegem, sa dam gres si sa o luam de la capat. In momentul in care te pierzi e bine sa iti aduci aminte de unde a inceput totul, de ce si unde vrei sa ajungi.

Probabil nu vei gasi raspunsul atat de repede, dar iti vei gasi motivatia de a merge mai departe sau asa speram :)). Din pacate, tin sa te anunt ca tu esti singura persoana care te poate scoate din aceasta โ€žzi proastaโ€. Pentru cei din afara ei pare simplu: โ€ž๐’น๐‘’ ๐’ธ๐‘’ ๐“‰๐‘’ ๐“ˆ๐“‰๐“‡๐‘’๐“ˆ๐‘’๐“๐’พ ๐’ถ๐“ˆ๐’ถ?โ€, in schimb pentru cei din situatie pare coplesitor: โ€ž๐’ฉ๐“Š ๐“ˆ๐‘’ ๐“‚๐’ถ๐’พ ๐“‰๐‘’๐“‡๐“‚๐’พ๐“ƒ๐’ถ..โ€. Daca si tu ai intonat frazele cum trebuie ti se va parea ceva teatral, si ar trebui, pentru ca zilele sunt ca scenele de teatru: pe unele le intelegi, altele sunt doar un hint pentru mai tarziu, unele sunt interminabile, altele parca trec clipind, unele au sens, altele nu si mai sunt si cele pe care nu le intelegi niciodata. Insa toate contureaza cine suntem indiferent ca este vorba de atunci sau acum.

Se spune ca atunci cand zambesti chiar daca nu esti fericit, expresia faciala pacaleste creierul facandu-l sa creada ca este fericit, rezultat= vei avea o stare din ce in ce mai buna, asa ca zambeste, puneti piesa preferata si ia-o din loc – ๐’ž๐“Š๐“โ€™ ๐’พ๐“ƒ ๐“‰๐’ฝ๐‘’ ๐‘’๐“ƒ๐’น, ๐’พ๐“‰โ€™๐“ˆ ๐’ฟ๐“Š๐“ˆ๐“‰โ€ฆ๐’ถ ๐’ท๐’ถ๐’น ๐’น๐’ถ๐“Ž