Everything moves so fast in our life and yet your state of mind perceives it so slow. High and low, that’s the state now. It’s weird, I started talking to people and it felt good, it felt different.. not right because for the moment it can’t be right but it was enough for the moment. I know that it starts and it ends because of me, I just hope that we can find the strength to move forward no matter what is holding us down.
What is holding you down?
I had some thoughts these days. Sometimes I get this feeling like I’m choking, like I’m just sinking deeper, floating at the bottom.. with no rope to hold on, no hand to pick me up. I think it’s not just a feeling, it’s my poor state of mind. Rationally I know that we have to move on, to go forward but all my ties are cut off, I saw them piece by piece breaking apart. How can you move on when you feel this emptiness in you and around you?! How can you be happy again when all the reasons to be seem not enough? Maybe it’s expecting too much? Maybe they were not the right people around?
What makes you move forward? What drives you to be happy? What are you dealing with?