Daily journal: 6. For BETTER or WORSE

You know…sometimes you feel its getting better but you fear from behind Murphyโ€™s laws, or at least I do. Its like, if you have a glance at a good news or a good situation you want to keep it just for you, you want to enjoy it by yourself but not because youโ€™re selfish, no.. because youโ€™re afraid that it will be teared apart if you announce it, if you share it with others, if you enjoy it. These are universal laws: the more people know about your life, the harder will get, they want to involve into it and eventually will ruin it intentionally or not.

Thatโ€™s why when I got a good news I tried to keep it for myself or for the ones involved. When I started talking about it.. was like the universe came and took it from me saying โ€œNop, rookie mistake, I told you not to enjoy it, now watch it burn.โ€

Life is not white or black so maybe it wasnโ€™t because I spoke, but because I was insecure about the news, insecure about myself thinking deeply that it wont work out but never admitting it…

Maybe it all started because of my thinking and it wasnt any law there, were just my energy, my thoughts and my fears.

What do you believe about these: universe, energies, laws and fears?

Daily journal: 4. CHAOS

๐™‹๐™–๐™จ๐™ฉ ๐™™๐™–๐™ฎ๐™จ ๐™ฌ๐™š๐™ง๐™š ๐™ฉ๐™๐™š ๐™ฌ๐™ค๐™ง๐™จ๐™š ๐™–๐™ฃ๐™™ ๐™ฉ๐™๐™š ๐™—๐™š๐™จ๐™ฉ ๐™ฉ๐™๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™ž๐™ฃ ๐™ฉ๐™๐™š ๐™˜๐™ช๐™ง๐™ง๐™š๐™ฃ๐™ฉ๐™ก๐™ฎ ๐™จ๐™ฉ๐™–๐™ฉ๐™š ๐™ค๐™› ๐™ข๐™–๐™™๐™ฃ๐™š๐™จ๐™จ.

All started with my dog running from home on an evening, 3 February, 21:00-22:00. It was a cold night, the air was covered in mist and the rain it was slowly purring in a frozen state. That night I looked for him for 3-4 h outside calling and yelling, desperate, thinking if he will be ok over this cold time or if somebody took him and doesn’t want to let him go. I put announces on Facebook, Instagram, on groups with lost animals and I couldn’t sleep all night. I has him since he was a baby, i raised him, I fed him with a baby bottle milk, I mean he is a part of my family, a member not just a pet. All night I went outside calling him at the gate, on the street, hoping he will pop out and he will return home, but no success.

On the internet a lot of people shared my post, looking for my dog.. So at 12:00-13:00 I received a call from a woman saying she found my dog on a post at another woman and she was sure he is mine. She sent me the picture with the post and there he was, on the street, near a concrete pillar. I contacted the other woman who made the post, she asked me for picture to be sure he is mine, after all confirmed she said he is near her house, on the streets, very scared, looking poorly. He was like 3 tram stations from me, I rushed to the station and I called my cousin to come with the car and we went in pursue. We yelled after him, calling on the streets, asking people but I couldn’t find him. My cousin said he has to continue working cuzโ€™ he was delivering packages, so I called my mother saying to her to come after me to keep looking… And right there, we were driving and all of the sudden my cousin said he saw something and he turned the car 180 fast at a corner. Guess what… There he was my dog, staying at the corner of the street, we rushed to him, leaving the car open, the doors , everything,. The dog, Toffee, by his name, he was scared and shocked, he ran a couple meters and after that he saw me and came to me. At that time, my cousin grabbed him and we got in the car. We took him home, safely. It took him a couple days but now he is playing, jumping and enjoying the time with us.

It was a tremendous story, when you are at the point of losing somebody, human or animal, something happens in your mind, your adrenaline increases, your courage. You find solutions, you don’t find excuses, you go till the end of the Earth.

๐™„ ๐™ฉ๐™๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™  ๐™ฉ๐™๐™ž๐™จ ๐™ž๐™จ ๐™ฉ๐™๐™š ๐™ข๐™ค๐™จ๐™ฉ ๐™ฅ๐™ค๐™ฌ๐™š๐™ง๐™›๐™ช๐™ก ๐™›๐™š๐™š๐™ก๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™ฌ๐™š ๐™๐™–๐™ซ๐™š, ๐™‡๐™Š๐™‘๐™€.